11/19/14 
Naturally, I cannot help but solely think about my benefits, needs and wants. I am, to an extent, a selfish egoist who desires only the best for my future. I often muse about helping others occasionally, but the thought eventually evaporates after a matter of time. What good is it really to serve others? What is there to personally gain? These questions portray my human flaws and selfish reasoning: the very thought of considering myself to be greater and more valuable than others. AS I grow older in society designed for academic success and a prosperous future. I find it exceedingly difficult to live a purposeful life for God and his glory. Over the years, my relationship with God and my basic lifestyle as a Christian has slowly disintegrated. I am ashamed and fearful of my spiritual deterioration, yet I have done nothing crucial to resolve my doubt and flaws in God. Recently, however, I have been given a chance to truly ponder upon my purpose in life and my gradual spiritual development.
Last spring my high school’s local rotary club offered an essay contest to the junior class. The essay topic was entitled “Service above Self,” and the purpose of the contest was to depict what the short statement meant to each of the students. Although it was a local essay contest that didn’t offer much incentive, the essay topic struck my mind. Service above self: these three words contain so much meaning that hold the power to alter my perspectives regarding personal selfishness relationships with others. If the purpose of humanity’s existence was to live for itself, then life would be meaningless. Humans exist to coexist; we exist to serve, assist and interact with our surrounding community.
I strongly desire personal success, but I acknowledge that the emotion will not suffice for long. With a mindset of providing service for the benefit of myself and others, I am able to truly see what is gained from rare interactions and relationships. This is evident not only at local levels but at national and international levels as well. Service for others is a globalizing factor that continues to strive daily. Whether the services range from internationally renowned organizations to local community programs, programs that help and support our respective communities are increasing. Through these various services, I am able to experience helping others at a new level. The beauty of putting others before my own interests is not only others’ gain, but my personal gain as well.
I want to live a meaningful life with high goals and dreams, and they can only be reached by striving for coexistence. We must be able to use what we have to help and serve others, because only then will life seem not only enjoyable but full of purpose and meaning. As I continue my studies and plan for my future, I hope and pray that God will guide me with grace, wisdom and strength to adhere to His plans and promises for me.